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The definition of best friends.

A few goodies that didn't make the Instagram cut from our thanksgiving weekend.

11.18.12

We had the cabin all to ourselves for a night. We watched a few movies and fell asleep on the floor in front of the fire. I LOVE this place.

11.17.2012

My favorite moment of the day was sleeping on the floor in front of the fire at my parents house. I laid there listening to Todd laughing and joking with my parents in the kitchen. In that moment I felt so grateful that my parents love my husband like their own. They totally get him, and let Todd be himself. I love that. We left Lucy with my parents and went to the temple. It was incredible, there was only one person over the age of thirty. The officiators were in their 20's and everyone in the session seemed to be our age. What a powerful thing that was.

11.16.2012

Today I want to remember laughing so hard I couldn't breathe around the Olive Garden table with my family. And I want to remember looking back in the rear view mirror on the drive to Idaho to see Todd adoringly looking at Lucy with a proud papa little half smile. Perfection,

Today last year I posted this...

Today last year I posted this...

Dear baby,

           Yesterday we got to see you again. You look SO adorable. You had a teency bladder, and cute little fingers and toes. Your bones and your spine lit up all white and were just the cutest things we’ve ever seen. In one of the pictures you stretched out your legs as long as they could go and pointed your toes. Are you going to be a dancer little one? We’ll see. The rest of your genetic tests came back normal. All 46 chromosomes for you. The down side of the day, was your cystic hygroma was bigger than last time. Not as big as it was when it was huge, but bigger than last time. Your neonatologist said that it was not alarming, and told us to keep our fingers crossed it will be gone by your next ultrasound in a few weeks. She said that if it was gone by then we have cause to be “cautiously optimistic.” So, that is what we are being. In 10 weeks we go to Primary Childrens and their fetal cardiologists will look really closely at your heart. The hygroma tells us that it is likely that there is something wrong and hopefully they will be able to tell us what it is. How lucky are we that there is a top children's hospital right by us, so that if your little heart needs some help, the best of the best will be able to do it. Maybe there won’t be anything wrong and you are fixing it yourself. You must be working hard in there or something, because you are still making me sicker than a dog. I lost another pound, and am struggling to make it back up to my pre-pregnancy weight, but am determined to gain some weight this week. I’m debating eating a container of sour cream, then washing it down with a carton heavy whipping cream for lunch. Nothing sounds good/tastes good or stays in my stomach anyways, so I might as well put something high calorie in there for a minute or two right? Sounds delicious. Wish me luck.  Love,mom.   

This year I am posting this... 

I realize that the video is just black, but that laughter is the best sound I thought I'd never get to hear. My heart is bursting with gratitude. My miracle baby. 

Pumpkin Baby and blogging recommit

So, I'm so busy editing photos of every one else and their cute kids, that my little nuggets photos are unedited and plain. I'm going to post them any ways, even though it kind of gives me an anxiety attack. I AM going to better at journaling (blogging) about this amazing life of ours. I can't believe how much my photography has taken off. I feel so grateful for everyone that has supported me. I've been doing photo shoots almost every day I have off. It's been incredible! But, with the busy months being over I'm looking forward to spending a little more me time during my down time. Mostly, I just want to go back to writing down my favorite moments of the day. Starting today... maybe tomorrow. Today, just enjoy my child as the tooth fairy, and in a pumpkin.

Denver 2012. My first vimeo

denvermovie from Suzy Holman on Vimeo.

Melts me

Big News

So... I've been working on something and I'm pretty excited about it. I'm pretty nervous about it too. But, finally I feel ready to take the plunge. Take a look.
http://suzyholmanphotography.blogspot.com/

To remember

Today's highlights: Lucy slept nine and a half hours last night which left me with a huge amount of energy today. I went to a late night dance movie with my dental school girls and Todd and I woke the baby up dancing around learning from a "how to gangnam" tutorial. Also I grocery shopped today, meaning I won't have to do that again for a few weeks.yeah for me, yeah for today.

Sunday was a day I want to repeat over and over again. There wasn't any church due to the Brigham City temple dedication. We cuddled in bed till noon with Lucy then made dinner and headed up to Silver Lake. It was breath-takingly beautiful. We walked around the boardwalk holding hands and taking pictures every nine steps. We passed so many cute little families and we talked about how we can't wait to have a whole crew to take pictures of and to put into our perfect pearl Jeep Commander( our someday car). Right now our future feels as bright as the fall leaves. It feels amazing to be on our way to accomplishing our dreams, and it feels good to be adjusted and content with our new roles as parents. I know there will be bumps in the road and set backs and hard times. But, right now it's easy to pretend there won't be, and I'm okay with that.

To remember

As I got ready to go to work and give a lecture to other nurses about Multiple Myeloma I felt so grateful and proud to be balancing my nursing career with being a mom. This months marks 5 years at the Huntsman Cancer Hospital. I admit that getting out the door for those two shifts a week is tough and I have to talk myself into it every time, but I am happy to have a gratifying job that allows Todd and I some breathing room in our budget.

To remember

 The moment when I went in to get Lucy from her nap I opened the blinds and went to pick her up and she looked up at me with the biggest "I'm happy so see you" grin and giggled. Oh and why yes that is slobber slowly dripping toward my mouth in the top picture.. no big deal

To remember

That my fabulous dental school girls took me out to dessert for my birthday (even thought it was a month late) and we spent two hours laughing, chatting and venting. I drove home with such a big smile on my face and a grateful heart to have such amazing new friends.